It's been about 3 months plus since the death of my beloved mother. It's a strange feeling, very foreign to encounter this feeling. I went back to KL for the tombstone placement (as the eldest in the family) and I felt the loss. For the first time, going back to KL/PJ not seeing my mother in her bed/house but seeing her in a new place ie Nilai Memorial Park. Life definately is not the same! It's different, it's not usual, it's unbelievable but it is the fact, the fact of life that we cannot run away from! I remember Dr.Butler told me that it's always there, the feeling of loss! No matter what you do, where you go, in space or in a different planet, it's not going away. The fact is she's gone, and you are not going to see her for a very very long time, perhaps never in this coming lifetime or the next. Is it fair or unfair, that begs the question. It's hard luck and we have to deal with it.